Hee Hee Hooooo

Ok I have calmed down now after going a bit mental yesterday.  Chalk that up to not dating for ages, not meeting a decent man with a genuine connection in ages, and having a bad week at work where my ego was also taking a battering.

But in dating though, everything is personal, because when dating we expose ourselves and put ourselves out there, and invest emotionally into it – so it’s hard not to take it personally.  Even Don Corleone would agree with me I’m sure.

Anyway, I’ve found a solution to my problem of overanalyzing, worrying, panicking, etc. – I need to get a life.  Which is why I’ve signed up to do two very sporty things (at least very sporty for me) this year:
1) Part of a relay team walking up 49 floors of Jardine House for a charity fundraiser
2) Dragon boat race

I don’t know if I’ll make it into the team for the dragon boat race as I’ve never done it before, and experienced paddlers will get picked first.  Fingers crossed.

My piano is also arriving any minute now, so I will have beautiful music back in my life.  Tomorrow I fly to Bangkok for 5 days.  It is the first time I will be away from my kittens – I’m going to miss them!

Hopefully I’ll be back in control of my life when I return from Bangkok.  Stay tuned!

(drama drama drama)

 

See, This Is What I Don’t Get

Okay, so tell me I’m not going insane here:

I think he’s not interested in seeing me anymore.

Here’s my case:
1) Pre-date, when we were first writing and texting each other, he showed definite signs of interest and pursuit in me.  There was definitely flirting going on.
2) During the date, there was also interest, and we hung out even after the official date, and after saying our goodbyes, there was still flirting on WhatsApp.
3) Post-date, he fell ill for 2 days, and was back at work yesterday.  Granted he had just gotten better.  But pretty much from the very next day after the date to this time of writing, there has been a significant change in behaviour, namely:
- No initiation on his part in terms of emails and texts (whereas previously he was very responsive and would initiate communication)
- No word on whether he would like to meet up this Saturday, before I fly off for work for a week.  No word on any possible future dates either (although when we said goodbye, he had agreed to meet up again and reinforced this through texts that same night)
- No more signing off with xx, which he had consistently done before
- All of today, not a word from him, and I know it can’t be because he’s busy at work because he has previously messaged me and even emailed me while he was at work

Basically, nada.  My only explanation is that he’s gone off me.  Zip.  Interest took a nose dive.  Barings Bank couldn’t have collapsed faster.  Annette says that guys are like that and it’s normal for them to run away and hide, then come back.  My colleague Jean says to give him a week and if no word, send him one more text to give him a second chance (I don’t see where that logic comes from – if I don’t hear from him why is a second chance needed?).  Me, I’ve had enough 180-turns in behaviour to pick up what’s really going on here.

So seriously – Am I that undateable???

*runs off to cry*

Is it worth even trying to date in this city?

 

Keep Calm and Carry On

Oh be still my heart.

He looks better in person.

We get along, so far.

We’ll see.

 

Butterflies

I am officially freaking out about my date tonight.

Oh, did I not mention my date is tonight?

 

Thoughts

I kind of miss studying.  Burying myself in books in the silence of a musty library.  I’ve been thinking, on and off, about going back to school for a masters or MBA.  Either the UK or the US.  Which do you think?  I’ve studied in the UK already, and haven’t been to the US before.